What is Energetic Healing? Well, like everything, you can google it. You will find several definitions and there are different modalities that fall under the umbrella of ‘energy healing’ but the one I am writing about is a modality called Chakra-Puncture (CP). It is similar to acupuncture in that it uses needles but it is dis-similar in that it doesn’t work on the Chinese meridians. Instead it works through the nadis in the body. There is further information about chakra-puncture and nadis at the end of this blog.
The best way for me to talk about energetic healing is to share with you my actual experience. When I do a CP detox program (a series of twelve sessions), I like to have a ‘theme’. For this one I nominated the theme of “Show me what needs to be healed, show me what is holding me back.” By ‘holding me back’, I mean what is holding me back from experiencing the joy of being a child of God. Granted we live in a mad, mad world and this is a good excuse for not feeling the joy of being divine but I am wanting to move past the madness and embrace the Joy.
This blog is about what rose up to be healed but first I need to set up a bit of background. In 2008 I lost a great deal of money. I was invested in a First Mortgage company called City Pacific. It was insured by the Bank of Queensland at the time I invested. However, a couple of years in, the Bank of Queensland pulled out and neither the bank nor City Pacific advised the investors. So when the Global Financial Crises (GFC) hit, City Pacific tried to slip under the radar by saying all of our money was gone due to the GFC. Well, some of the investors (there were 10,000 Australians invested in City Pacific) didn’t buy the GFC story and upon investigation it was proven that the money hadn’t disappeared due to the GFC but rather because the City Pacific board of directors were crooked and had siphoned off the money into other (unidentifiable) accounts and assets. We, the investors, filed a class action law suit, it went to court, and the head honcho was found guilty BUT he had hid the money well, claimed bankruptcy, and the money couldn’t be found. He didn’t do any jail time. I learned many years ago that we can’t count on justice through the judicial system but, it still surprises me.
I spent the next couple of years after losing the money trying to regain my footing, not just financially but emotionally. I discovered that I had a great deal of identity tied up in that money. I thought it proved that I was a good and responsible citizen, it proved I was a hard worker, something I took a great deal of pride in. The money would ensure that I could be independent (also very important to me). Without that money to my name, I crashed big time. There were weeks when I could barely get out of bed. I had to rebuild my confidence, in the world and in myself. In time, I discovered that my true worth had nothing to do with my bank balance. However, I was bitter, resentful, angry, and sceptical for a very long time. Now, some ten years down the road, I had become disengaged from all that negativity, but it was only because I had buried it very deep in my body so that I wouldn’t bump into it.
A couple of months ago, we (the investors) were contacted by a company which advised that the Australian government, following the banking royal commission last year, had created a pool of money for Australian citizens who had been defrauded by Australian financial institutions. (More info on the CDDA Scheme at the end of this blog.) This company had researched the City Pacific situation and advised we were eligible to apply for compensation. They were prepared, for a fee, to wade through the red tape of applying on our behalf. It felt like a reasonable fee in comparison to the amount of money I had lost so I signed the forms to participate. At some point in the process, they wrote asking me to complete a Victim Impact Statement (VIS). I was reluctant. Even though I had (somewhat) successfully buried all that resentment, anger and bitterness, the thought of writing a VIS would bring it all to the surface. I knew that. But as I was laid up in bed for a few days following knee surgery, I decided to write the VIS. As I suspected it would, it brought up all those buried emotions.
Then just a couple of days later, my computer got hacked! I woke up on a Saturday morning to emails from Airbnb, PayPal, and Mastercard all advising of receipts for transactions that I had not made. I had never been hacked before so I didn’t really know what to do other than take a deep breath, use common sense and start contacting the companies involved, contact my Internet Service Provider and change my password to the internet and modem, and change every other password I have. To complicate matters it was the weekend and a long weekend here in Australia.
I had been successful at supressing my anger, resentment and bitterness while writing the VIS by choosing to feel ‘down’ instead! However, I didn’t attempt to suppress my outrage while dealing with the hacking, not that I took it out on the people I had to deal with but my body was literally shaking. The past rose up to the surface – which made me realise that those feelings were still alive and well within me, even though I had spent ten years trying to pretend that they weren’t.
Fortunately for me and thanks to the constellation of the heavens, I had a session with my practitioner on the Tuesday following the long weekend. He helped me see the situation from above.
During the session I was able to connect the dots and see how the anger, bitterness and resentment I still had in my body about losing my money back in 2008 was ‘holding me back’ and interfering with me feeling the joy of being alive. The timing of events will always be a mystery to me, but this is the magic of committing to energetic healing.
It’s like taking a road trip without a road map. You set a destination but you have no idea how you are going to get there.
There were more layers to this healing than can be captured in a blog. But to share just one other aspect is that, with my practitioner’s help, I realised that the Victim Impact Statement that I had written came very much from the energy of poor me, that of being a victim. This set me up energetically to be taken advantage of again (being a victim in the hacking). He suggested that I go home and re-write the Victim Impact Statement from the point of appreciation of how my life changed (improved) because of having lost the money. Even when I had a large sum of money, I was living with very low self-esteem. Later, with a zero- bank balance, I found my self-esteem growing as I learned to value myself. I came to understand that my integrity and the quality of my livingness is my true value. I have known for years that my life took a big turn at the time I lost the money but I had never gotten to the point that I was willing to say that:
The best thing to ever happen to me was losing that money as it made me look deeper at life, deeper into my own life. It brought me home to my inner heart where my soul resides.
But I can say it now and really mean it.
On a practical note, he also advised me that I needed to get my computer into the shop straight away and have it cleaned because obviously spyware* was planted in my computer in order for the hackers to gain access to so many accounts with completely different passwords. My computer guy cleaned my computer first thing the next morning and yes, I had spyware.
The companies that had fraudulent charges made on them provided excellent customer service and I had all of my money back within ten days.
Miraculously I feel released from the negativity of the experience of having lost the money in 2008. I no longer feel like a victim. It happened. It felt like a big price to pay for finding myself but I now realise that ‘finding myself’ is price-less.
This is energetic healing.
Read more about Chakra-Puncture
Read more about the Science of the Nadis
Read more about CDDA Scheme
Compensation for Detriment caused by Defective Administration https://www.finance.gov.au/resource-management/discretionary-financial-assistance/cdda-scheme/information-for-applicants-cdda/
My CDDA application for compensation is an on-going matter and may or may not bring any joy. Time will tell. I’m unattached to the outcome. But, of course, getting some of my money back would be quite alright with me. haha
*Spyware is unwanted software that infiltrates your computing device, stealing your internet usage data and sensitive information. Spyware is classified as a type of malware — malicious software designed to gain access to or damage your computer, often without your knowledge. You can check your Applications to see if you have Spyware. If you are technically savvy, you will probably know what each Application is for. If you see Applications called Pitch of Case, Spiget, or Smokyashan – you need to remove this malware as it is spying on you. .
Gayle Cue loves writing about life, reflecting on every day miracles and pondering on the big picture.
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