If I was asked “What is responsibility?” for most of my life I would have replied, “It is a burden, a weight on my shoulders.”
But lets take a look at the word. Doesn’t responsibility simply mean “an ability to respond?”
How did it get so twisted around in my mind? It’s hard to say, of course. Could have been the fact that I was the oldest child in the family so always felt responsible for my younger siblings. Or it could have been a condition that I incarnated with – having either been irresponsible in a previous lifetime or, as I suspect, overly responsible in a previous lifetime – because that has certainly been my propensity this lifetime.
As an overly responsible person, I was running around collecting projects and people to be responsible for. I was responsible at work. I thought I was a role model for responsible parenting. It gave me purpose. It became my justification for living. I was needed. Those people, those projects – were dependent on me. (I had made sure of that!) No wonder the word ‘responsibility’ was a burden.
Understandably, during mid-life crises, I became ‘responsible phobic.’ I ran a mile from anything that might remotely turn into a responsibility.
I have often moved through life in a rubber band sort-of-way. You know, I’m stretched tight way over on one side of the issue and then something causes a snap and I’m suddenly way over on the other side of the issue and then, eventually, I find myself somewhere a bit more in the middle. It’s the long way around something.
The rubber band effect has a way of dismantling me. This dismantling allows me to clear out old patterns and behaviours and I can start to rebuild, to re-imprint if you will, how I am in the world. About the time I found myself snapping back from avoiding responsibility by all measures, I had started to live with an entirely new understanding of what responsibility means; simply an ability to respond.
Through my study and living of the Ageless Wisdom as presented by Serge Benhayon, I came to understand that true responsibility was an energetic responsibility. It had much less to do with my actions and much more to do with my intention. What was the energy I was doing anything – everything – in? Once I came to this realisation, everything became so much simpler. My response-ability is entirely dependent on ‘how’ I do whatever I do and not ‘what I do.
If I am living from the essence of my soul, as a child of God, then whatever I am doing is done with love, for myself and the other, equally so. This is what true responsibility is and it is as light as a feather.
No burden at all. It is quite surprising how much gets accomplished without really trying. But the best part is that I no longer need projects and people to be dependent on me. However, I live with a strong inter-dependence with all of humanity.
The ultimate responsibility is in choosing to honour the divine origins of myself and others. By ‘living from my divine orgins’ I mean, that I am choosing to live impulsed from my inner heart not from the outer world, not by what has become normal, not by what others think. This is a moment to moment choice.
Thankfully, I have response-ability.
Gayle Cue loves writing about life, reflecting on every day miracles and pondering on the big picture.
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