Choosing Self-Doubt or the Light of my Soul

​It seems that the majority of people suffer from some form of self-doubt. It often appears in the form of self-devaluation.  This can show up in all sorts of ways; low self-esteem, low self-confidence, low self-value or the plain old me, me, me version of constant self-doubt.
 
Where does this self-doubt come from?  Is it inherent in the human condition?  After all, we can take a poll almost anywhere.  Ask a group of people sitting in Centrelink if they regularly experience self-doubt.  Or ask the audience at a conference of psychologists.  I venture the show of hands will be about the same in any given situation. 

Is self-doubt something that is programmed into us from a young age?  It is easy to imagine that if someone has overly critical parents, they may grow up with a good case of self-doubt.  On the other hand, I know someone who grew up with a supportive family whose fault may have been in over praising the child, who then had no learning curve about how to deal with criticism. So self-doubt is once again the outcome.
 
But perhaps self-doubt actually has its origins somewhere way before our current life experience.  Is it possible that self-doubt is a result of a choice we made a long, long time ago? 
 
Have you ever pondered the phrase “fall from grace?”  I’ve always wondered why God would have created man (humans) in his image, giving man Free Will, knowing that man would likely make the ill-fated decision to wander too far from home.  Take a quick – or a long – look at the world today and it is easy to see that we have indeed wandered very far from home. 
 
God breathed man forth (using a phrase to identify the impossible-to-understand magic that is us) creating man in his image, complete with free will.  We (mankind, humanity) then became enamored with our individuality.  Instead of co-creating in brotherhood and with God, we find our selves deep in the forest of creation, having not left enough of a trail of breadcrumbs to find our way back home. Is it any wonder we are filled with self-doubt?
 
Just for the exercise, lets say that the fall from grace (our choice to create as individuals rather than as the collective brotherhood) is the source of our self-doubt. What could the answer be in terms of how to move beyond self-doubt?
 
Perhaps it is as easy as remembering our true origins. I am a child of God first and foremost. No matter what I’ve done or what has been done to me, my essence, my original divine light is still whole and untouched at a soul level.  If I operate in this temporal world from the soul level, from my divine essence, I am part of the whole, where we are all one. How can there be any self- doubt ?  Self-doubt requires an anchoring in self, in being an individual. If I am living the light of my soul I am not attached to my individual self, and therefore will not have self-doubt. 

​The voice of self-doubt is the bleed-through of the rabble from the outer world, where separatism is the name of the game.  However, inside each of us there is a stillness where we can hear the higher sound of our soul communicating with us. It speaks to us not in words but in a knowing – a knowing that we are not alone, that we are all equal, that we are love.  It is in living this, that self-doubt fades away.
 
Living in this way isn’t easy, at first, because it requires a letting go of ideals and beliefs, a letting go of patterns, a letting go of trying to control the uncontrollable.  But with a gentle dedication to live as a soul having a human experience on earth, we find ourselves free of self-doubt and in the joy of The Livingness.

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